- Mood: Confused/Hurt
- Music: Numb -- Family Force 5
Brian and I are doing great! I'm not jealous anymore. So, that's very, very good! My relationship with Brian, Maechelle, Bow, and school are the only things going well in my life right now. So, that basically just leaves people at school and home that are not going well. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to put up with everything at home. I mean, the screaming, fighting, chaos, pain - It's all just getting too difficult to block out. For some reason, today, my guard just completely shut down. I'm really getting sick of everything that goes on here. I cannot wait to get away. I really, honestly, truly need that. I just need to get out of here, discover a new world and live life the best that I can. There's going to be a day that I'm just going to break. I assure you it will come sooner rather than later. And, on that day, I will just want to escape, run, hide, do whatever I can to just leave it all behind. It seems like everything is just a huge disaster right now. But, I know, deep, deep inside that it's not. I mean, I do have things going well for me right now. And, no matter what, Jesus, Brian, Maechelle, Lindsay, Bow, Ben, Kier, Alexandra and possibly a few others will always, always, always love me, even if I don't feel like they do, they do and I just need to remember that.
--Owe no one anything except to love one another, for he who loves one another has fulfilled the law.--
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